crazyness hovers

confused I stand today. confused over the question whether I have digested love or am I swallowed by love. do I have love inside my heart or am I myself totally drown in the ocean of love?
   The question remains unanswered but I least care about it coz  I  am happy in any of the case.
Some where down the lane or gossips of friends or may be the long chats of grown ups , i have heard "love stories are generally greater and better if the two persons are strangers".
  It is so strange to see your heart running fast when it is placed near partner's heart.
 Lots of loneliness is there, anxiousness persists too i feel like swaying with myself in no control. your remembrance haunt me, and your memories seem to stick and mix in my blood , all through the long day and lonely nights, i wait for you, i love you.
      Getting you and not losing is what my objective is. you are the one who brings breaths to me and then they are called lives. half a promise sometimes or may be bit more than half brings joy to me.
               i keep looking for you , i keep waiting for you. trust in you is what makes me to stand here and not move away.
             i will bring you back, i will convince you. madness is all over me from the moment you have stolen my heart. i expect you to name either day or night to me or both.
            the story of heart is of 2 words. either its love or it is addictive nature. Questions regarding talks of heart cannot be answered. expectations are not so high at the moment. i expect you to just hug me and not ask anything. let there be silence and let the heart beats be heard.

would die to be with you....

u are my dreams, u are the reality,

u are my thrist, u are my ocean,

u are the restlessness of my heart,

u are the determination.

  

u are the one whom i wish to see first,

u are my god and u are my only world,

u are the one whom i wish to steal from you,

u are the only one about whom i wish to be with.

i love you from the first time i talked, 

i became maniac of you first time u kissed,

ur hugs convinced me that you are just mine,

all i can say that you make me shine.

maybe sometimes u think that i get angry too oftenly,

baby,u dont think what i feel inside me,

u still dont understand me completely,

u still dont know what i have for you.

u expect much from me , that i know,

bur what i expect, i dont like to show.

i still love u the way as before,

only difference is conflict over certain things.

your first touch still remains fresh in my mind,

when first u saw cigarette in my hand n said "i dont mind",

i loved it when u looked in my eyes,

i loved it when i was close to you n u were all mine.

yours is the only face that i see with my eyes closed, 

i wish to be with u and see all my life get passed,

your deep eyes and soft lips urge me to loose control,

but every time i end up killing my instincts.

last vacations (winters) took a heavy toll on me,

crying, tears and the distance seemed to be the destiny,

every night after sms chat i ended up sleeping at four,

dont hope same will be the case this time as before.

waste, crap and rubbish those tears appear now,

u were not serious for me, "wow,

dont worry, i wont break any of my promises that i made,

but unlike before , this is the only love that i had.

u dont know how i felt about hearing of something,

appeared that i had had lost my everything,

or maybe i gave my everything in return of nothing, 

then haunted the thought, "did u ever had anything".

hope u will try n see what i have for you,

though i know what i mean to you,

there is nothing that i now expect from you,

and a big sorry from bottom of my heart for hurting you.

Big sorry for getting angry and hating you when i had no reason......

                                                               i wish i don't have to say this line ever, " you had me, u let me go".

bbye sweetheart , gonna miss u lot n yaa love you....................                                                    

                                                

Being alone at hostel

corridors which kept buzzing wit guys all round are quite

seems that mess workers have got some respite.

you have all the license to shout and sing

seems that everyone is himself's king.

books and notes have been thrown into the shelf

its the perfect time to relax our self.

cricket and TT are all in the action

but as always i remain far away from perfection.

bikes seems to be the only mates to roam around

at nites one can easily hear the barking sound.

after all these days the hostel seems to be just a mere structure

seems like being alone in the hostel is going to make me fracture.

Amative

My love, my heart, my soul is my gift to you
Your smile, your love is the only reward I would want

Precious, like a gem made by angels to shine forever
Releasing the passion inside me that burns for you
Intertwining our destinies, so that we two soul mates
Now and forever, can live out our hopes and dreams
Creating our own bond of life, to overcome the challenges
Explore the mysteries, and to enjoy life as it should be
Sharing the peace and love, that everyone looks for
So in the end I want nothing, because I have everything I need